Angel of the Morning, don’t let me walk away…Angel of Life, enter my body and bring life to my limbs, just as you are bringing life to the limbs of these beautiful trees here at the golf course, just as you bring life into the river. Life flows it along, bringing the water of Life to this Shenandoah Valley and bringing life to me. That is what we are really after, acknowledging the water of life inside of us. Meditation opens me to seeing this oneness of all, all around me. I sit at the bench in silence for a while. 

The Holy Spirit has a a job to be with me, to be alongside me, as I walk. I used to think it was my job to manufacture the Holy Spirit in me, but this Holy Spirit has been sent. Jesus spoke about it several times before his crucifixion. “I will send you the Paraclete.”

I am changing from carrying the Holy Spirit in some kink of box, into walking along here with me, by the golf course. I am arm in arm with my Holy Spirit, sent to me, who has the job of being helpful to me specifically. I always feel I am in charge and elbow the Holy Spirit out of existence, or at least back behind me. I am having a different kind of conversation with the Holy Spirit, this morning. 

I am walking barefoot along the edge of the golf course, on the grass. I see there are a lot of different plants taking advantage of this beautiful place. Mother Earth, it is good to walk on your breast in my bare feet. And when I walk into the flowing river, protect my old feet from the stones. As usual I have a great attraction for the water, to step into it this morning, to say thank you to the river for its acceptance of all that it is used for, for its beauty, and its refection, for its feeding of the great trees along its banks, for cooling me down this hot morning. 

The Life in the river is the light of God flowing through. It is holy. Make me comprehend it. The Light shineth in the darkness and the darkness comprehended it not. 

It is a day or two later and the dream before I wake up is long and strong. It comes as an answer to my wish to sort out some conflict and I am given a dream. In the dream I collude with someone, who causes the death of a child. I am not blameless in the situation. It is the sin of a past life. 

It tells me that the sins of the past are revisited on you and that you suffer for what you do or are part of in the past. I see the person is unhurt now in this life but the dream is showing me hurt committed in a past life. 

It helps with forgiveness for what I perceive as bad treatment in this life. I still can pull myself away from these relationships but must remember that I have no business cursing others for what they do to me. It was like the situation, when David is cursed by the old woman, who knew of his sin. David said “let her alone, God allow this to happen.” He accepted that the hurt to him was allowed by God and is in payment for his sin, which involved life and death of one of his soldiers and the soldier’s wife.

My dream involved inheritance issues, life and death, in earlier centuries. It is a familiar story. I sinned, was guilty, in that I allowed that sin to happen. I am kept out by others now because of it and mostly refuse to accept that all that happens to me does so for God’s good reasons. You do not get away with any jot or tittle ever. Think twice before you bring suffering to others. 

I will pray and I will meditate and I will believe that I can and will follow the statues of the Lord’s way for me. I am praying for God’s plan for me rather than Rose’s plans. That is the promise, that Jesus will ask the Father for what ever we ask, provided it is in accord with “his statues.”

“For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper and not harm you, to give you hope and a future.”

Love from Rose Marie.