I have a dream of being disappointed, and having two ways to deal with the disappointments. One is to take it up with the management and the other is to put my heavy rucksack on my back and leave. Feelings of disappointments can show up as physical pain and may be stored in the body, rucksack work. Disappointment is stored in the lower chakras and can trigger all sorts of old disappointments, unrealistic, rusty and left there. Taking it up with the management may be an option to arrange for the clean up crew. Seeking a place of Baptism, where the light of Christ shines and where there is a washing away. Silence. Stepping into the water, avoiding the monster emotions, setting down the heavy rucksack, putting one foot on land and the other in the sea of it. Leaving the rational, the physical, for something as elusive as the Northern Lights, that something shimmering, full of movement, light. Not being afraid to face the disappointments, putting your hand into the the heart of the muck in your sewers to find jewels there, big and bright.